Medically Induced Coma Waking Up Process: My Induced Coma Experience
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October

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What is it like waking up from a coma?
Today I’m gonna share that with you. Hi, I’m Amanda Van der Gulik from www.cleverdough.com where I help entrepreneurs find ways to create an income from
themselves doing something they love and teaching those concepts to their
children raising money smart kids I’m working on a series of videos that
explains what it’s like to be in a coma and near death experience that I almost didn’t survive. Due to acute respiratory distress syndrome but luckily did so what is it like
waking up from a coma it’s really bizarre when you wake up you’re not just
suddenly awake as the medication gets taken off because I was in an induced
coma a medically induced coma so as the medication slowly got taken
away my brain did really weird things really strange things and there was a
lot of things I had to learn again you see what happened and I’ve got a video
for you explaining exactly what it’s like being in a coma which you can see
my playlist over here a very short scenario I ended up with double lung
pneumonia and I got transported to a hospital with an ICU and in order to do
so they had to put me in an induced coma and it was supposed to be for just a
couple of days but it ended up being for three weeks and nearly not making it
because I developed ARDS which is when your lungs want to just give out and
they cannot support themselves any longer so what it was like waking up so
as the medication started to come off my brain went from this horrible nightmare
state that I had been dreaming while in the coma and slowly started connecting with what was actually happening in reality but my
brain didn’t know the difference so I would literally have conversations with
people in the real world but our conversations were not the same I
remember my dad when saying oh but you said such-and-such and I’m like yes but
at the time I didn’t know you were talking about this thing I was talking
about this thing so yes I may have answered you but in my mind I was in a
different place and what you were saying never registered it to me what you were
saying was simply what I thought you were saying one of the beautiful things
about this is that I got a wonderful insight into what it is like for someone
who struggles with mental health where they see something that is not actually
present but how real it really is to that person and how by saying to that
person oh don’t worry that thing isn’t real actually just adds more anxiety
because now we’re afraid that you don’t see this this horrible thing that we
clearly see so besides coming out of the ICU psychosis when your brain has to
start functioning again without the medications and it’s like you’re being
detoxified in your brain you go from crazy dreams to slowly reality
remember the days so clearly when I was able to actually sit there and look at
my my partner and she would say okay that one is real and I would put it in
my real folder in my mind you know that one who didn’t happen okay so I put that
in my that was the dreamworld folder and I was actually starting to able to piece
together which pieces were reality and which pieces had been my nightmare
besides the mental side of coming out of an induced coma there is the physical
implications because I was in a coma for three weeks everything in my body had
atrophied which means the muscles had completely relaxed and they didn’t have
the ability to constrict the way a muscle needs to constrict in order to
move your body I had no strength completely weak but most I could do was
just barely lift my arms and move my arms a little bit and that was a
struggle I could not communicate my brain as it slowly started shifting from
the nightmare state to reality was able to function thank goodness although my
memory took a really hard hit and I still struggle with that to this day my
processing speeds are dramatically reduced to what they used to be I can no
longer do what I did before at the speed in which I did it both mentally but also
physically especially physically besides the paranoia and the nightmares
the physical side when I woke up I had this tube in my mouth it was helping me
breathe but I didn’t realize that was what it was doing I wanted to get it out
so I was fumbling and struggling and I managed to actually unclip it a few
times luckily my partner was there and stopped
me or else that could not have been a good outcome
but I was in a state of not knowing what was going on I was strapped down because
during my coma I actually tried to escape my bed and somehow had actually
managed to get out of my bed even though I was strapped down and hit my head on
the concrete floor that also went into my dreams if you’d like to hear what the
dreams were like in the coma I’ve got a video for that in my playlist as well
it’s really interesting how your brain takes every experience of your life and
all of your fears and all of your loves and mushes them together in the most
horrendous way now I’m not saying this happens for everyone who lives in a coma
but for me that was the situation every possible fear I’d ever had every
negative experience I’ve ever experienced came together in this
overwhelming nightmare of a dream so what other physical implications did I
have well I couldn’t speak I couldn’t communicate so my mom wrote out the
alphabet on a piece of paper thinking maybe I could just point to the letters
I thought internally this was a great idea I was going to be able to
communicate cuz I had to warn them I was still in this paranoid state I had to
warn them of these horrible things which really weren’t there but I had to warn
them and I couldn’t communicate so I started pointing at the letters but
my hand-eye coordination might my brained hand functioning wasn’t working
I would want to spell the word dog but my hand would not go to do G it insisted
I’m going to see a T like so my words made no sense we couldn’t communicate so
I was still not able to communicate so it took a little while a couple of days
for slowly pieces to come back together and to be able to do
and that was a huge struggle it was physically exhausting as well cuz again
my lungs had been through the wringer as well as my body not getting the oxygen I
needed I had things like as I got stronger
I had just do what they called spidering just moving yourself around your bed to
start building up your muscles that was tremendously difficult it hurt
I had no stupid try to lift myself up and I couldn’t come on you can do it but
I couldn’t and it wasn’t for lack of trying because I was trying when I
finally was able to lift my leg off the bed for the first time I did not expect
what happened I lifted my leg off the bed and my muscles stayed on the bed and
it was just the bone and it terrified me I thought I would never ever get my
muscle back again this was just my new life and it looked like I was about a
hundred and thirty years old and only the bone would move and the muscle
sagged and it was terrifying it’s terrifying to be in that bad of a state
physically you don’t understand how you can possibly ever come back from that
when I did get my voice back I couldn’t sing I’d never not been able to sing and
I never realized how important it was to me for for my health for my mental
health to be able to sing it hit me so deeply this part of me that helped me
cope when I was happy helped me cope when I was sad I was no longer able to
do and that’s really sad I spent a lot of time doing musical theater and to not
be able to just jump on stage and dance and sing
that was really hard to accept one of the very first things I was determined
to do after I woke up and communicated oh hunted water
I wanted water so bad and I wasn’t allowed to have it because of course
they were afraid my lungs with asphyxiate in other words I would choke
and so I wasn’t allowed water but I am somebody who drinks water all day long I
have it beside me all day long I drink water I have my smoothies
I’m always drinking fluids always you know a cup of tea and here I’d gone
three weeks on just an IV and my partner bless her soul was like oh don’t worry
like you’re hydrated they would make sure you’re hydrated and I’m like okay I
might be hydrated for a normal prison but for me I am so dehydrated my brain
is not working and the first time I was able to drink I could actually feel the
neurons in my head connecting and ideas making sense again it’s incredible I had
a really lovely nurse who gave me ice chips because I wasn’t allowed to drink
oh they were the most heavenly thing I had ever had the other thing I was dying
for more than anything in the world for my children I ached for them I
desperately wanted to see them I wanted to see them before I was even mentally
capable to see them I hadn’t quite sifted through reality and nightmare it
was all still together and so when they did come to see me they only got to see
half of me it was really weird for them but luckily
they never saw me while I was in the coma they never saw the severity of it
and they didn’t have to process that until later which I’m very grateful for
once I started to heal though I am when very determined puppy and I started
healing fast nurses actually had to tell me to slow down they said yet normally
we have to encourage our patients come on do your exercises I did everything
and I wasn’t hungry I ate everything I wasn’t thirsty okay okay I was always
thirsty let’s be honest but everything that I could possibly do I did because I
was determined to get back and I honestly thought I was going to recover
a hundred percent if not more and when they said to me probably only ever
regained about 80 percent capacity no no no percentages are based on those and
highs and I’m clearly gonna be in the high and I believe that for two years as
I struggle to get stronger and stronger until finally I mentally broke and
realized that this might be it it doesn’t matter given up and I’m still
pushing but finally reality set in I have a disability and it’s an invisible
one people only ever see it if they hear me you know right now my voice doesn’t
sound too bad but as I get more and more tired I honestly I sound like I’ve been
smoking for about 150 years and I’ve never smoked in my life my ard s was so
extreme that they don’t even have rehab for it because most people don’t survive
so as soon as I started to recover they whipped me up out of ICU and into the
recovery units I lasted for a vet day and they already had a place for me
back in my home hospital not the home town hospital but the one that it
belonged to because of course they needed the beds so I got shipped over
there for again another day before finally an opening in our own hometown
Hospital was available for me and that was one of the happiest moments of my
life because that meant that as my kids walked home from school they walked
right past the hospital and they could pop in and they would sit on my bed and
we talked about the day and helped them with their homework I could just have my
cuddles and my hugs and I swear I healed so much faster having my kids there with
me I remember when I was still recovering back in the ICU there was a
snow day I was so excited I called Mike up and I’m like Cindy you’ve got to get
the kids bring them up here cuz they have a snow day like I was looking at
the report way before they were even awake to see if it was a snow day
because I wanted to see them so badly I am so blessed with everybody around me
if you’d like to know what it’s like being in a coma then make sure you check
out my playlist and also to hear what my dreams were like because very
interesting all of this all these videos that I’m doing for this series are in
dedication of a woman who really inspired me
Claire Weinland who passed away sadly last summer
suffering from cystic fibrosis her entire life had a lung transplant and
then developed a blood clot made to support her foundation Clara splice
foundation which is an amazing foundation to help support cystic
fibrosis families with financial aid that they otherwise don’t have access to
and the most amazing part is that Claire came up with this concept when she was
just 13 years old after being in a two-week coma herself so make sure you
check out my dreams I’m gonna share how a lot of my dreams were not only my
experiences and my fears but also the things that were said around me how they
came into my dreams as well people in a coma really do hear you smells that we
remember hearing you but you penetrate the walls of our brain and it’s very
interesting all right don’t forget to subscribe and click that notification
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description below to learn more about Claire and her Claire’s plays foundation


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